LOOSE Women star Nadia Sawalha has opened up about fearing she would DIE in her "miserable" marriage before turning it around.
Celebrating 19 years with her husband Mark Adderley, the 56-year-old TV personality detailed how the couple went through a "whole heap of hell" before finding happiness.
Alongside a series of sweet snaps of herself with hubby and producer Mark, 51, the star detailed the highs and lows of their relationship.
"Nineteen years married today," she captioned the snaps, which began with a recent selfie of the pair cuddling up in their kitchen.
"We almost didn’t make it. Too often when people post about their relationships on here it can all be a bit hearts and flowers and that can be so damn intimidating and depressing for those that might be struggling with their own relationship," Nadia went on.
Before detailing some of the tougher times, the prefaced that she and Mark were "always going to be together" as they "crashed into each other".
However, Nadia went on to detail how they toyed with their lies "lying in the road" and drinking to excess in their "f***ing miserable" first few months of marriage.
"At the time, we were both so unhappy for very different reasons," the TV chef added. "We were self medicating our feelings with bottles of booze and crazy behaviours.
"It’s a miracle we didn’t both snuff it in those first few months (we used to lie in the road blind drunk to ‘see what would happen' FFS)
"The first few years of our marriage were really really tough . If I’m honest we were f***ing miserable a lot of the time.
"Eventually after a whole heap of hell we came to the realisation that we were going have to get on with the graft of making it work, because actually we loved each other and would have been as miserable as sin if we’d broken up."
Nadia explained that the coupled had to "work their a**** off to keep the relationship alive and fizzing" and make a "conscious effort".
Their turnaround involved "couples counselling, saying when we've wanted to leave and listening when we've not wanted to".
Noting that she feels "effort" is the only way to keep a relationship ticking, she concluded the list: "Compromising when we'd rather have died!"
"And here we are, 19 years on off the back of a very challenging, frightening few weeks," she added. "And I love Mark more than I ever have."
The Loose Women star gushed over her "gorgeous" hubby who she thanked for being a "fabulous father" to their two daughters, Maddy 18, and Kiki, 13.
"The most supportive loving husband, so smart, talented and bonkers," she concluded the post. "My life would have been a car crash without you.
"Everyone thinks I saved you, but we saved each other my darling. Love you till the day I die. Thank you… for being exactly the way you are."
She joked at the bottom of the emotional post alongside a love heart emoji: "I wouldn't change a thing. Except the farting… maybe."
The series of photos show the couple at the start of their relationship, at the birth of their first daughter and on their wedding day.
Nadia also included funny pictures of their pair dressing up in large sunglasses, on their holidays and Mark climbing up trees.
It comes days after Nadia exposed her belly in a crop top on Instagram to mock Kim Kardashian's Skims line.
The star posted the video of herself in a grey crop top, trousers and long cardigan on Instagram and joked the set was the colour of "pigeon poo".
Using a voiceover Kim, 40, had used in her own video for her 222 million followers, Nadia mouthed along to: "We are now live with our SKIMS cosy collection.
"I wore this to take my kids to school and it was literally a dream.
"This is just how I live my life, super cosy."
Posing in her walk in wardrobe with her phone held high, Nadia seductively played with her top straps and pulled down the shoulder of her grey dressing gown.
The British TV personality has become known for sharing images of her body online with honesty, humour and self-deprecation.
The British TV star has repeatedly mocked the American reality tv star, as in 2016 she appeared on Loose Women in full contour make-up that over exaggerated her features, a method the Kardashian clan have popularized.
She has also copied many of Kim’s nude poses and posted her copycat versions on her own Instagram.
Nadia also posted herself dancing around her bedroom in sexy black underwear mocking Kim’s lingerie line, earlier this year.
The TV personality plans to renew her wedding vows this year in Cornwall and live stream it online just as Kim and Kanye did in 2019.
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