KATE Ferdinand has ruled out having another baby with her husband Rio after newborn Cree's traumatic birth left her unable to hold him.
The 29-year-old star went on to admit that just the thought of adding to her brood makes her feel "anxious", with the beauty already stepmum to Rio's three children.
Speaking in a new interview, Kate admitted that being a new mum has left her feeling 10 years older after giving birth last month.
She said: "If you ask me right now I would say never ever again. Our house is very hectic as it is. We have four kids and two dogs, it's a madhouse.
"The thought of having another one makes me slightly anxious."
She added to MailOnline: "I'm only 29 but I feel 39 at the moment! But you never know, I might feel different in a few years."
Kate previously opened up about the guilt she felt at not being able to hold baby Cree or change his nappies after being forced to undergo an emergency caesarean.
She wrote on Instagram at the time: "I’ve felt like I can’t do what I’m meant to be doing with Cree as I haven’t been able to change or feed him consistently which has had me feeling all types of guilt, for Cree, Rio & that I can’t be doing what I normally do for the kids.
"After having an emergency c section, and a bit of a traumatic birth I’ve been completely wiped out. The happiness has been overwhelming but so have the tears and emotions."
Kate also showed off the bruises that covered her body as a result of Cree's birth, where she admitted the C-section was "much tougher than expected".
Last night, the blonde beauty admitted that she was having a "good day" after step-daughter Tia, nine, treated her to a makeover – the first time she'd glammed up since giving birth.
Alongside a stunning snap of herself, Kate wrote: "Today was a good day, I did my hair and makeup for the first time in six weeks…
"Tia’s words were… 'Kate’s back'.
"I went to register Cree (without him because of Covid rules)… so it was also the first time in six weeks I’ve left the house with no kids or dogs… I shouted woo-hoo as I left. No joke!
"Mums I hope you can feel me here, we love our kids so much but wow it was nice to get out and think in peace without hearing ‘Kate, Kate, where’s Kate?’ Or a baby crying!"
The new mum continued: "I’ve been jealous of Rio leaving for work suited and booted, putting on his aftershave with a little spring in his step while I’m looking like I’ve been dragged through a hedge!!
"Anyway, it was a good day… back at the mad house now, in my pjs, with a little bit more patience (not sure how long for though)."
Kate's post follows shortly after she admitted she was struggling with her new baby in lockdown and had been "left feeling low".
The former Towie star shared a snap of a note left by one of her three step children, telling her: "[Please] stop crying. I love [you]."
Kate wrote to fans that while she'd hoped the screaming baby would "drown out the sound of her tears", lockdown meant that "little ears were listening in".
"To new mums, mums, step mums … and anyone who is struggling in lockdown, I feel you," she began the emotional post.
"Sometimes we just need to sneak in our room and have a little cry … even then, because of lockdown, we may have lots of little ears listening in.
"A mix of the new baby, lockdown, kids at home and lack of sleep have well and truly got me.
"I feel like I’m a robot going through the same routine daily, feed baby, wind baby, wait for him to wake and repeat."
Kate added that while she knew she was "blessed" to have her "husband, four beautiful kids, and two dogs", she felt "trapped".
"Some moments I’m feeling amazing and full of love, but I’m too often left feeling low, like I can’t escape," she wrote.
"All my coping mechanisms I’ve learnt over the years to keep my anxiety at bay I can’t utilise. A workout, a long walk, some alone time.
"I never normally talk openly with how I’m feeling on here in the present, I always open up when I’m feeling better or it leaves me feeling really vulnerable. Your messages made me feel so much better last time and not alone."
She concluded by thanking fans for their support, and encouraging other new mums that they "weren't alone" in their struggles.
Meanwhile, just days after, Kate took to social media to thank her loved ones for "helping her through" a difficult time.
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